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10 January 2007 @ 11:12 pm
Connection, empathic connection  
Hey guys :)
So many things have happened since I last posted in here or paid proper attention to my comm -oops! I've been meaning to, I just haven't felt quite right, maybe ready? To put down all my ponderings and revelations here to share with everyone.
I probably have several posts worth of topics to discuss but the most pressing that's been on my mind for the past couple of weeks is ...
Have you ever had a really strong connection with someone? I'm really thinking in the empathic sense.

In the last couple of months I've really noticed my empathic abilities have increased, and at times, gone into over-drive. I know my abilities are improving, I pick up on emotions easier, stronger without realising, I have more spiritual and prophetic dreams, I get funny vibes and feelings of "knowing" more and more.

When I went to see my great aunt in hospital a month or so ago ... I don't know how to describe it, because no one else seemed to notice how she really was, could feel her desperation and despair, how utterly depressed she was. I felt like I connected with her but for once (I can normally think of the right words) I couldn't think of a single thing to say to her that I knew would make a difference.
What do you say to someone who is longing to die but is being kept alive beyond what would naturally be their time?

By far the strongest spiritual and emotional connection I've had with anyone is that which I have with my girlfriend. Normally with most people I can tell if they are depressed etc or whatever and I act accordingly and to an extent mirror their mood but, with her, I've found that her emotions can completely overrule my own. Talking to her on the phone on Christmas Day (I think) and I had felt fine earlier but talking to her I could hear she was trying to mask how she felt and was almost at breaking point and tears just started to form in my eyes. I had this completely overwhelming urge to cry and I felt so utterly desperate, thankfully I managed to say goodbye before I really started to cry. At the time I was confused and couldn't understand why my mood had so suddenly changed, it wasn't until later that I realised I was reflecting her emotions. I've never had such a strong feeling from someone else before manifest itself in such a physical way.
I've talked to her about how sensitive/empathic I am (actually she brings it up before I do) and I've said sometimes it can be overwhelming, but that's normally because I'm feeling several different emotions from several different people, I haven't told her that I get by far the strongest emotions from her.
Sometimes I find it quite unnerving that another being can influence me in such a way, and for it to be so sudden that I'm almost knocked back by it.
She's a very private, guarded person and often, without trying, I can read her like a book. I know it unnerves her a little as she's unsure how to act with me because she knows that I know when she says she's ok and she's not but she's not put off by it.
I think my abilities have just been lying dormant for most of my life and I'm now discovering them, so I expect for a fair few of you you'll have experiences like this more often than me and will have had people who you strongly connect with, but for me it's all new.

What are your experiences, how do you cope with them, how do you explore it all?
karma says: quixoticquixotic
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Queen Lucy the Valiantsparkly_faerie on January 13th, 2007 10:06 pm (UTC)
Ok, figures, thanks.
Thanks for your opinion, I spose I won't look at it as any special soon enough.